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Having just read Ethan’s Sharing, I am one more perplexed.
I have found since I started channeling people seldom listen to me or pay heed to my words if I do not credit Ethan. Since I do not have every word I speak dictated to me (which would be easier), I begin to doubt myself. Many of the feelings I share about various questions I am asked are mine. Now I am not saying that I am not influenced by spirit and what spirit has taught me, but I do also process my own thoughts. Now you are wondering how I know the difference, and I am not sure how to explain it. Frequently, Ethan’s voice rings loud and clearly in my head, and then there is no doubt. When I have a thought that seems far removed from my file of collected information, I doubt.
Sometimes I become quite angry with myself, because I do not act for myself when I have been given ample clues.
Now if I am given a warning or heads-up for someone I will push until it is herd, but I don’t do the same for myself. I wonder if everyone has this problem. We will act for others before ourselves.
Why are we of less importance than another?
I don’t think it is that we think less of ourselves, but that we want others to think more of us. Everyone wants a knight in shining armor to sweep in and clear up all the mess we have. Most of us think we do that for others. I wonder if we really do, or is it just easier to clean up someone else’s mess? Perhaps what is perceived as a mess from the inside looks very clear from the outside. Perhaps when we have made misjudgments, because we know the process it took to achieve the snafu, there is too much information justifying the decision to clearly see an exit. Now this is just my thought and I attribute it to no other source, but me. There that felt good to own my own wisdom. Now, I am not saying that Ethan’s words did not inspire me to work on this subject.
My refrigerator went out yesterday or some time before that.
I returned from town and opened the freezer after Ethan’s suggestion, to find everything slimy and thawed. This is without a doubt a very icky situation. I immediately got a trash bag and pitched several dollars ruined food. Since I tend to stock up, it was much more than it should have been. Now my landlord was gone and of course it was Saturday night so nothing, but salvage work could be accomplished. When he returned he dug out the various coolers and began filling them with refrigerated items, like medicines. So I am assuming Monday I will shop for a new refrigerator and hopefully find someone to deliver it. Meanwhile I do not have cold water. Now you say I could put it outside, and you would be right, however; it will freeze. For every solution, there is a consequence.
Several months ago I had mentioned I should look for a new refrigerator, but did not.
So see there was the clue and I dropped the treasure hunt without beginning. I must admit the refrigerator had been on my mind strongly for several weeks, but again I ignored those subtle clues. Now Ethan says to me, what good does it do, when you ignore the clues? He is right. If I had been told that some ones refrigerator would go out and they needed to replace it before then I would have been diligent in their quest. Now, because I wanted someone else to care for me I am without. If I do not care for myself why should any care?
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